I grew up in an environment where crime and addiction was commonplace. And although I hated seeing the effect addiction had on the people around me, I ended up 'doing as they did'. I disliked myself and the way I ran my life for so long. I was unable to get off the merry-go-round until I - eventually - stumbled into a 12-Step program of recovery.
The 12-Step program provides me with a simple road map of how to live, without the need to numb myself from reality. It has saved my life and continues to change it for the better - or myself and everyone around me. I now know I am not a bad person wanting to 'get good' but an unwell one (suffering from a disease of addiction) wanting to get well. And there is a solution.